Inflamed and Untamed

It’s always been that way. The nights, they’re the worst. I wonder why though? Even in the most terrible flare-up of my life I could get through the majority of my days and then do horrible at night. That was when my pain, the trips to the bathroom, the bleeding, fevers, and everything else was at it’s worst. 

It’s happening right now and it’s tricky.  Because I will have a relatively okay day.  I have been able to make some videos, get out of the house more, and pick up some shifts at work. I do those things and get all excited and then night time rolls around and I have a night like tonight. 

I can’t walk upright.  I walk slowly around the house hunched over in incredible pain.  My stomach is extended and hard and I feel like I could throw up any second, it’s awful. During nights like this I think about what to do.  Call the doctor? Go to the ER? Wait to see what happens next… But then I wake up in the morning and I am back to having a good (or at least decent) day so I am tricked into thinking it was nothing, or it was just random…but then night time comes again.  It also goes along with how I have a hard time answering when people ask the simple question “how are you?”, I’m fine…this second? 

I do have an appointment with my GI coming up and so I just figure I can wait til then. What about you guys, are your nights the worst? I feel like our bodies secretly know when to let down their guard. 

How does this happen? I feel like I am right back where I was a year ago when I was losing weight rapidly even though I was eating more trying to compensate for the weight loss.   

So that is where my health is at as of right now. I’m not letting it get me down though. How are you lovelies doing?